Archive for the ‘the past’ Category
July 15, 2005
I’d like to give a shout out to my dad’s new website, WhereIFish.com He’s been working really hard on it lately, and my brother has done a great job setting it up for him. Since I’m officially the “PR” person for the site, I’m just trying to get the word out as much as possible. Its a totally free site, where people that love to fish can go and tell their stories and upload pictures of your catch! My dad is giving away $50 in Bass Pro gift cards every month for the best story! Visit WhereIFish.com and leave your fishing stories now, we look forward to reading them! There’s also a forum where you can discuss certain types of fish, bait, fishing spots, etc.
July 14, 2005
i went and had dinner tonight with Amber and Kain, we made mexican pizza (almost corn muffin pizza) and cupcakes! Amber told me to pick up some corn bread mix at the store, so i did. Low and behold, we actually needed corn MEAL and bisquick, so we almost had an interesting pizza on our hands! we scraped the baking stone off and decided to just make corn muffins out of it, so we worked it out!
Kain had some fun with cupcakes, and he had it ALL over his face, so I thought I would join him and get a little chocolately.
July 13, 2005
Today I went to walk along the river with Sara & her dog Shay. It was so beautiful outside and the sun was just starting to go down.
July 13, 2005
I’d like to give a shout out to my dad’s new website, WhereIFish.com He’s been working really hard on it lately, and my brother has done a great job setting it up for him. Since I’m officially the “PR” person for the site, I’m just trying to get the word out as much as possible. Its a totally free site, where people that love to fish can go and tell their stories and upload pictures of your catch! My dad is giving away $50 in Bass Pro gift cards every month for the best story! Visit WhereIFish.com and leave your fishing stories now, we look forward to reading them! There’s also a forum where you can discuss certain types of fish, bait, fishing spots, etc.
July 12, 2005
1. This is my grandmother’s sewing scissors. She passed away in 1999 when she was 99 years old, and recently my other grandmother gave these to me. My grandmother was very good at sewing, cooking, baking, and everything else a housewife born in 1900 would know how to do. I wish she was still around to teach me everything she knew.
2. This picture is of me and my friend Jenn when we were 18, this was taken in her dorm room her freshman year at Loras College, in Iowa. I can’t believe how long my hair was back then! I miss it now, but it was alot of work!
3. This is a scrub shirt that was given to me by a drug rep when I worked for Genesis hospital doing medical billing. I thought it was cool since it was for Viagra. Its too big for me now, so I haven’t been able to wear it, I just can’t seem to get rid of it though!
July 12, 2005
Happy Birthday Becca! I went out with Becca and her husband, Art, Sean, and Greg last night for Becca’s birthday.
holy crap my hands are filthy! i just looked down at the keyboard and noticed how dirty my fingers are!! egh!
I’m so glad I have the day off tomorrow, I’m buying my house! It will be a good feeling to know that I own it! Its been something I’ve been working towards for a long time to get my credit in order.
Work is going to be extremely slow today, I can already tell. maybe they will send people home because we’re not busy, that would be sweet, i think i am far on the list from being sent, so I’m stuck here, hey at least i have tomorrow off!
July 11, 2005
I must admit, I have the best dog in the world!
July 10, 2005
I went fishing this afternoon with my dad. We had a lot of fun, I caught 5 bluegill and 3 catfish in 1/2 hour! Fortunately, the pond we were fishing in was stocked full, so the minute I dropped my pole in, I had a bite!
July 8, 2005
my goal this year was to be organized. i’m still working on that. my finances are getting there finally, getting my home loan finished up this next week, and consolidating my debt, and from that i’ll have enough money to fix up my house and put up a fence for mikey! i was very surprised how small my debt really was when it was all put together, i’ll have everything paid off in like a year and a half.
it feels like when your finances are in order, everything else seems to fall together, if you have to not pay a bill one month so you can make your house payment, then you go behind on the other bill, then you slack off another bill to pay the one you didn’t pay the month before…etc etc etc…
other goals i had for this year was to rid myself of negativity in my life. i did manage to get rid of the biggest so far, so thats a start! another goal is to take care of myself, which i haven’t been doing.
self note: no sugar, no pop, get sleep, exercise, eat protein…..
maybe i should make a huge sign and put it up in my kitchen!
house goals: fence backyard, landscape, new garage door, new side garage doors, remodel bathroom, clean out basement, get rid of crap!
i know what i need to do, i just need to get motivated
July 1, 2005
we are given many choices in life, but some things we can’t choose. people are put in our lives for a reason, to teach us, guide us, and inspire us. i’ve never realized the importance of 2 people in my life until tonight. i never realized how the little insignificant moments can be so influential in the big picture, and the effect they had over me. i was a mom. i am a mom. emily and camryn were put in my life for a reason. 
the thought of them tingles in my heart everyday, and puts a smile on my face. 
however, tonight, the thought of them brings tears and heartbreak. the effect 2 little girls have on me is overwhelming. i didn’t give birth, but i feel like they are a part of me. my heart is aching, just to hear them laugh, or watch them draw on the sidewalk with chalk. stepping over the backpacks in front of the door where they were dropped the minute we walked in the house. barbie clothes scattered throughout the house, like little reminders. early saturday mornings, feeling small hands wrap around your chest as they snuggle up next to you in bed and watch cartoons. eating a bowl of cereal for dinner. being punished by my 5 year old teacher because i didn’t have my homework done when we played school. i miss them terribly. the thing that hurts the most, i always knew they were brought to me as a gift, because i’ve been told it would be very difficult for me to have children. motherhood was dangled in front of me, and i embraced it, giving my complete love to them, teaching them, guiding them, and inspiring them. all the while, not knowing, they were doing the same for me. they’ve taught me to love, be patient, kind, and giving. they guided me to be a better person, and inspired me to give my love to others unconditionally, just like they did to me. i wasn’t their mother, but they made me feel like it. tonight i’m sad. i’m angry. i’m upset that i cannot be the mother that i was. the mother who taught them how to write their name, taught them how to ride a bike, taught them how to share. i’m angry. i’m angry that i won’t be able to watch them grow up, fall in love for the first time, tell them how beautiful they look when they try on their first prom dress, watch them walk down the aisle at graduation, and be there when they start a family. i won’t be able to tell them how proud i am of them. i hope they remember me, and what i taught them. i will always remember what they taught me.
